An exodus into predisposition.

This is my blog. To start, I feel the need to explain how I will be using this. I do not intend for this to be an exact journal. I may use it to write about my day, or other events, but that is not my sole intention. To be particularly honest, I have no singular intention. This will simply serve as a place to articulate thoughts and experiences as I see fit. I cannot guarantee accurate spelling, grammar, or vocabulary usage. It will simply depend on my mood I suppose.

So lets begin shall we?

Mood : Megadeth - Addicted to Chaos
(to explain, I'm music based in my thought and personality, my mood will always be explained with a song. Do not accept the title as my mood, if you want to understand the mood, listen to the song named. To explain even further, do not listen to the WORDS of the song, listen to the feel of the music, I'm usually more focused on the melody..)

To set the stage for my current situation and outlook, you should understand that I'm 21, I live with a parent, I work in retail, and the best friend I've ever had just died of cancer. To answer the first question, yes, I would say I'm in a state of mourning, perhaps even depression. Be that as it may, I still feel happiness most of the time, and feel more than confident that my current level of cognizance is more or less unaffected by current events...for the most part.
I will say that I miss in a way I've never felt before this. That, for the most part, will probably be all you will hear about it. What? Yes, I will write in many perspectives, speaking in multiple persons. I have no care to make this "correct". I guess that more or less is related to a thought that I've spoken and written of before, but feel the need to address again. That thought being "right and wrong". We hear of this concept nearly everyday. Most people don't even put thought into it, they just accept the concept. This really blows my mind, since right and wrong in my opinion, are entirely abstract concepts. We base right and wrong on a combination of two factors: What we feel, and what we're told. Feelings are easily affected, and as such, are no basis for fact. What we are TOLD is based upon the perspective of whoever is doing the telling. Again, that is no basis for fact. With that being so, how is the concept of right and wrong really valid? Of course I feel that some things should and should not be done, but I don't necessarily believe we should classify it as a simple "good or bad" dichotomy. The concept of good and evil is just as invalid to me. Malicious intent is very real, yes. Mental instability and resulting behaviors are real, yes. Sometimes people do horrible things, but that doesn't mean that person is "evil". The concept of "good and evil" feels completely archaic to me. I believe that our current level of sentience is far above such a concept. Well... most people's at least... Yes, I know I've neglected to indulge the blinding seething religious masses, any of which probably would of either closed this page or started quoting scripture at me. I suppose I should explain that I don't believe in theology. I understand the concept as it applies to hope, and that it gives people something to believe in, and a reason to keep going, however, it doesn't hold any potency for me. I don't believe that superman in the sky with diamonds sent his zombie son to die and undie so we could be free to sock our wives in the jaw and get away with it. Not to mention, if he resurrected, wouldn't that kind of negate the DYING for our sins? I suppose God writes the rules though, so that makes it ok... Anyways, that's probably enough theological ranting for now.

Mood : Muse - Butterflies and Hurricanes

I feel I should talk about the song I'm now listening to. I feel that music is the singular most powerful energy to ever be discovered and harnessed. This song is a very good example of that. It's name is very well chosen, as it really moves seamlessly from a frenetic pace to a dainty and delicate mood. It is well worded, and incredibly executed. I constantly envision creating a choreographed show to this song, as it is very theatric. It demonstrates the power of music incredibly well. It's hard to believe how well music can articulate every possible emotion a person can feel. I've not felt an emotion I could not find in song. I love music with every fiber of my being.

I feel I've said enough to field a strong first post. I cannot guarantee a second. I can't guarantee I'll ever look at this again, but if I do, then more posts with most likely come.

Free your mind from what it sees,
To understand perceptually.
- Me